HOLY CRAP! JEN JUST TOLD ME THAT OUR PAPERS AREN'T DUE TILL NEXT WEEK!!!! I TOTALLY THOUGHT THEY WERE DUE ON TUESDAY!!!!! I'M SO GODDAMNED FUCKING RELIEVED!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

ANY way.... man. i was gonna post on here as a way to procrastinate. that's really funny. cuz now that i know i don't have to do work, i don't have the urge to update anymore. ah well, i'll do it anyway.

chandra, in answer to your questions, the confession is from grouphug.us. and no, i doubt it's about me, i was sorta joking. lol, it could be about me from james. except that it says if the authour tried hard enough he or she could get the girl to drink. which james can't do. trust me, he's been trying.

and i don't think you met bear. did you meet anyone? i dont' remember what happened when you were here.

i'm gonna change my song of the moment. to a bunch of songs. so i'm gonna post the lyrics. they're all from the JesAliJam vol. II - pasta, shrimp and cool whip.

song the first - hands down - dashboard confessional

Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here, from all the stupid questions.
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and let you in.
And you stood at the door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

i know, i know. *groan* dashboard. and also everyone knows that song. but it's sooo goddamned good. and when i was walking downtown the other nite, that song kept playing and it was sooo good. especially the "hands down this is the best day i can remember" or whatever. that's mine and licia's favourite part.

okay, song the second - king of spain - moxy fruvous

Once I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
Oh... my unspeakable wife, Queen Lisa (now I eat humble pie)
I'm telling you I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
And now I work at the Pizza Pizza
Royalty, lord it looked good on me
Buried in silk in the royal boudoir or going nuclear free
Or playing Crokinole with the Princess of Monaco
Telling my jokes to the OPEC leaders, getting it all on video
Once I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
A palatial palace, that was my home (now I eat humble pie)
I'm telling you I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
And now I vacuum the turf at SkyDome (once he was the King of Spain)
I can't wait, I'm lowering interest rates, my people say:
"King, how are you such a genius?
There's a roof overhead and food on our plates!"
It's laisez-faire, I don't even give a care
Let's make Friday part of the weekend
And give every new baby a chocolate eclair
Once I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
Hey Clinton! Hey Yeltsin! Got problems? You phone me (now I eat humble pie)
I'm telling you I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
Now the Leafs call me up to drive the Zamboni (once he was the King of Spain)
Now some of you are probably wondering how I cam to be living in Canada
after being royalty in Spain. Should I tell them, guys?
Tell us, King!
You see late one night when the palace was asleep
Out of my royal chambers and into the garden I creep
And I wait till the appointed time, when the moon is lighting the pitch
At which point my peasant friend, who looks just like me
Arrives and we make a switch
Prince and pauper, junior and whopper
World made up of silver and copper
Out of my own volition, I took a change of position
So next time you drool in the pizza line
Remember, slower pizza's more luscious
The King of Spain never rushes!!!
Once I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble)
I was looking for off-handed ways to improve us (now I eat humble pie)
I'm telling you I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
And now I'm jamming with Moxy Fruvous! (once he was the King of Spain)

this song is sooo great. when it ends, i just want it to keep going. the prince and popper part is definitely the best.

then there's #3 - boys 'n the hood - dynamite hack

Woke up quick at about noon
Just thought that I had to be in Compton soon
I gotta get drunk before the day begins
Before my mother starts bitchin' about my friends
About to go and damn near went blind
Young niggaz on the pad throwin' up gang signs
I went in the house to get the clip
With my Mac10 on the side of my hip
I bailed outside and pointed my weapon
Just as I thought, the fools kept steppin
I jumped in the fo' hit the juice on my ride
I got front and back side to side
Then I let the alpine play
I was pumpin' new shit by NWA
It was \"Gangster Gangster\" at the top of the list
Then I played my own shit, it went somethin' like this:

Cruisin' down the street in my 6-fo'
Jockin' the bitches, slappin' the hoe's
I went to the park to get the scoop
Knuckle-heads out there cold shootin' some hoop
A car pulls up, who can it be?
The fresh El Camino rollin Kilo G
He rolls down the window and he starts to say
It's all about makin' that G.T.A.

Cuz the boyz in the hood are alwayz hard
You come talkin' that trash and we'll pull your card
Knowin' nothin' in life but to be legit
Don't quote me boy, cuz I ain't said shit ...

Bored as hell and I wanna get ill
So I go to a place where my homeboyz chill
The fellas out there try to make that dollar
I pulled up in the 6-fo' and hollered
greeted with a 40 and I start drinkin'
And from the 8-ball my breath start stinkin'
I gotta get my girl to rock that body
Before I left I hit the bacardi
Pulled to the house get her out of the pad
And the bitch said something to make me mad
She said somethin' that I couldn't believe
So I grabbed the stupid bitch by her nappy ass weave
She started talkin' shit, would'nt you know?
I reached back like a pimp and slapped the hoe'
And her father stood up and he started to shout
So I threw a right-cross and knocked his old ass out

Cuz the boyz in the hood are alwayz hard
You come talkin' that trash and we'll pull your card
Knowin' nothin' in life but to be legit'
Don't quote me boy, cuz I ain't said shit ...

Punk ass trippin in the dead of night
homies score and key is gonna fly, punk ass fly
they rippin off everybody, man

a classic by far. and the best part - i reached back like a pimp and i slapped that hoe.

a'ight, i think those are the best ones.

i was gonna tell y'all about what i did yesterday and today. but frankly, i'm too lazy to type it out, i'm sure y'all don't care and i already wrote a bunch with the song lyrics.

love hugs and NO ESSAY WRITING TONITE!

~jessica
i wrote this at 1:18 AM

so follow the leader down and swallow your pride and drown. when there's no place left to go, maybe that's when you will know.

those are totally not the words. so i'm going to look them up in a minute and change them. to the right ones.

it's 3.30 am and i am tired. i had to do the pub nite late shift. it was awesome cuz blue haired jon was my cohort of the nite. we did the pony song with a bunch of people in the lobby. it was fun. and we drew cartoons of ourselves. yay.

i had a nap today from 5.30 till 9. and now i'm still tired. but it was good. before that i was in the council office and i almost started crying cuz of preacher. cuz i was that tired. even though i slept last nite from 1.30 till 10.30 this morning. that's a lot of sleep but still i was tired. and still weary, i suppose.

The new girl in my life doesn't drink, but she would if I encouraged her. Sometimes I want to get her drunk and see how far I could take it. She is a virgin and trusts me not to take advantage of her.

... i hope that's not james' confession...

so ya, tonite was pub nite and i couldn't go out cuz of portering. it was also bear's birthday which meant everyone (well, some people.. not as many as i was expecting) dressed up as school girls cuz he's obsessed with school girls. i didn't dress up, cuz i didn't go out. even though he told me earlier this week to dress up and he'd come see me at the porter station. james told me that he (bear) was looking forward to me dressing up the most. then he said something like "you're his--" but stopped. he was like nevermind and didn't continue his sentance. i was like uh.. what? (like in my head). i mean, i know bear wants to fuck me, that's sorta obvious and he told alicia so. when they were discussing lists of ppl they wanna fuck. but that was still sorta odd....

i made him a card, though. i hope he liked it. he was drunk when i gave it to him.

i guess i'm gonna go to sleep now cuz i'm tired and i finished reading the new grouphugs.

nite all

love, hugs and early morning bedtimes.

~jessica
i wrote this at 3:41 AM