you have changed cuz i still feel the same...

oh ya.. (in addendum to what i just wrote in my guestbook) the main reasons i was all upset about pepper (other than the fact i'll never see him again) was when i was all guilt-ridden and when i was trying to console kt.

ANYway... i just got through playing asshole for like 11 hours. well, we started around 4 and now it's 3 am. but we did watch a movie in the middle of that. movie being the italian job. i was sorta asleep for a lot of that.

but man, the first few hours, THE RAGE sure does build up. it was fun.

here are results from some quizzes from ja-9's blog.

1. the sexual fetish quiz... like i didn't see this one coming.. the drawing is cute.


pure

What's YOUR sexual fetish?
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2. what kind of kiss am i... also totally predictable


You are a child's kiss. Completely sweet and
innocent and pure. You mean no harm and only
love in your sweet kisses.


What kind of kiss are you?
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3. monkey! this was a really good quiz... same as ja-9 again... what the dillio?


Which monkey are you?
Another pointless diversion from Bijouriel

4. hollywood hunk... stupid quiz.. only 3 questions.. i got brad pitt but the pic is too big to post it..

and that's all she wrote

love, hugs and ASSHOLE!

~jessica
i wrote this at 3:41 AM

cuz the old black rum's got a hold on me...

*sigh* there is something seriously fucked up going on in the world. okay, so first of all, all these pets are dying. rosie-posie, larry, pepper [he got put down yesterday for anyone who didn't know], licia's ex-bf's dog was hit by a car yesterday...

and then me and licia are sitting at the ab very late (it was almost closing) and we're trying to figure out tudhope and shite about licia and jeff giles walks in and tells us his mom just died. suddenly. she wasn't sick or anything.

i don't even know what to say. i don't understand why the world is suddenly this crappy crappy place. i mean, i used to hear about how it was a crappy horrible place, but at the same time i would always be happy and be able to find the goodness in the world. but now? i just don't understand what's going on.

clare, if you still have that email you sent us all about the crazy stars and the whole negative thing that was supposed to happen this month, could ya send it to me?

guh.. stupid world... i feel so bad for jeff. i didn't even know what to say. i cried last nite. cuz i hate seeing my friends in pain.

anyway, that's my post. i have to write that essay this weekend.. that one that i thoght was due last week. stupid essays...

love, hugs and a fucked up world

~jessica
i wrote this at 1:27 PM

HOLY CRAP! JEN JUST TOLD ME THAT OUR PAPERS AREN'T DUE TILL NEXT WEEK!!!! I TOTALLY THOUGHT THEY WERE DUE ON TUESDAY!!!!! I'M SO GODDAMNED FUCKING RELIEVED!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

ANY way.... man. i was gonna post on here as a way to procrastinate. that's really funny. cuz now that i know i don't have to do work, i don't have the urge to update anymore. ah well, i'll do it anyway.

chandra, in answer to your questions, the confession is from grouphug.us. and no, i doubt it's about me, i was sorta joking. lol, it could be about me from james. except that it says if the authour tried hard enough he or she could get the girl to drink. which james can't do. trust me, he's been trying.

and i don't think you met bear. did you meet anyone? i dont' remember what happened when you were here.

i'm gonna change my song of the moment. to a bunch of songs. so i'm gonna post the lyrics. they're all from the JesAliJam vol. II - pasta, shrimp and cool whip.

song the first - hands down - dashboard confessional

Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here, from all the stupid questions.
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and let you in.
And you stood at the door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

i know, i know. *groan* dashboard. and also everyone knows that song. but it's sooo goddamned good. and when i was walking downtown the other nite, that song kept playing and it was sooo good. especially the "hands down this is the best day i can remember" or whatever. that's mine and licia's favourite part.

okay, song the second - king of spain - moxy fruvous

Once I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
Oh... my unspeakable wife, Queen Lisa (now I eat humble pie)
I'm telling you I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
And now I work at the Pizza Pizza
Royalty, lord it looked good on me
Buried in silk in the royal boudoir or going nuclear free
Or playing Crokinole with the Princess of Monaco
Telling my jokes to the OPEC leaders, getting it all on video
Once I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
A palatial palace, that was my home (now I eat humble pie)
I'm telling you I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
And now I vacuum the turf at SkyDome (once he was the King of Spain)
I can't wait, I'm lowering interest rates, my people say:
"King, how are you such a genius?
There's a roof overhead and food on our plates!"
It's laisez-faire, I don't even give a care
Let's make Friday part of the weekend
And give every new baby a chocolate eclair
Once I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
Hey Clinton! Hey Yeltsin! Got problems? You phone me (now I eat humble pie)
I'm telling you I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
Now the Leafs call me up to drive the Zamboni (once he was the King of Spain)
Now some of you are probably wondering how I cam to be living in Canada
after being royalty in Spain. Should I tell them, guys?
Tell us, King!
You see late one night when the palace was asleep
Out of my royal chambers and into the garden I creep
And I wait till the appointed time, when the moon is lighting the pitch
At which point my peasant friend, who looks just like me
Arrives and we make a switch
Prince and pauper, junior and whopper
World made up of silver and copper
Out of my own volition, I took a change of position
So next time you drool in the pizza line
Remember, slower pizza's more luscious
The King of Spain never rushes!!!
Once I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble)
I was looking for off-handed ways to improve us (now I eat humble pie)
I'm telling you I was the King of Spain (now I eat humble pie)
And now I'm jamming with Moxy Fruvous! (once he was the King of Spain)

this song is sooo great. when it ends, i just want it to keep going. the prince and popper part is definitely the best.

then there's #3 - boys 'n the hood - dynamite hack

Woke up quick at about noon
Just thought that I had to be in Compton soon
I gotta get drunk before the day begins
Before my mother starts bitchin' about my friends
About to go and damn near went blind
Young niggaz on the pad throwin' up gang signs
I went in the house to get the clip
With my Mac10 on the side of my hip
I bailed outside and pointed my weapon
Just as I thought, the fools kept steppin
I jumped in the fo' hit the juice on my ride
I got front and back side to side
Then I let the alpine play
I was pumpin' new shit by NWA
It was \"Gangster Gangster\" at the top of the list
Then I played my own shit, it went somethin' like this:

Cruisin' down the street in my 6-fo'
Jockin' the bitches, slappin' the hoe's
I went to the park to get the scoop
Knuckle-heads out there cold shootin' some hoop
A car pulls up, who can it be?
The fresh El Camino rollin Kilo G
He rolls down the window and he starts to say
It's all about makin' that G.T.A.

Cuz the boyz in the hood are alwayz hard
You come talkin' that trash and we'll pull your card
Knowin' nothin' in life but to be legit
Don't quote me boy, cuz I ain't said shit ...

Bored as hell and I wanna get ill
So I go to a place where my homeboyz chill
The fellas out there try to make that dollar
I pulled up in the 6-fo' and hollered
greeted with a 40 and I start drinkin'
And from the 8-ball my breath start stinkin'
I gotta get my girl to rock that body
Before I left I hit the bacardi
Pulled to the house get her out of the pad
And the bitch said something to make me mad
She said somethin' that I couldn't believe
So I grabbed the stupid bitch by her nappy ass weave
She started talkin' shit, would'nt you know?
I reached back like a pimp and slapped the hoe'
And her father stood up and he started to shout
So I threw a right-cross and knocked his old ass out

Cuz the boyz in the hood are alwayz hard
You come talkin' that trash and we'll pull your card
Knowin' nothin' in life but to be legit'
Don't quote me boy, cuz I ain't said shit ...

Punk ass trippin in the dead of night
homies score and key is gonna fly, punk ass fly
they rippin off everybody, man

a classic by far. and the best part - i reached back like a pimp and i slapped that hoe.

a'ight, i think those are the best ones.

i was gonna tell y'all about what i did yesterday and today. but frankly, i'm too lazy to type it out, i'm sure y'all don't care and i already wrote a bunch with the song lyrics.

love hugs and NO ESSAY WRITING TONITE!

~jessica
i wrote this at 1:18 AM