you hold the key, you hold the key... to my little locked room

well, i'm now posting about yesterday cuz dad's making me cuz he can't remember it. *le sigh* haha, just kidding.

but yesterday was fun. super fun. here's how it went down.

i woke up around 10.30 on the floor, with dad in me bed. he slept till like forever. like 1 ish. cuz he was drunk and high the nite before. by the by, this is the day after he scolded me for sleeping until 1.

so i read some comics, showered and then made him get up. then we went to the ab, got yummy breakfast (egg muffin with cheese... sooooo good) and did the crossword. it was very very fun and all father-daughterly goodness.

then we walked around campus doin' stuff that needed to be done. like me getting damage deposits and t4 slips and whatnot. it was gorgeous outside, and the walk all around campus was nice.

we stopped at the arcade on the way back to winters, cuz dad's a huge dork and had to play some stupid game. *giggles*

then we came back to winters and went to the ab. on the sunny sunny patio, at a picnic table, were jaypee, leighann, john, wayland, zisis, jair, bear and aidan gettin drunk. so, we joined them. well, i mean we sat with them, and dad joined them in the gettin drunk while i just laughed along and listened to fun stories. and it was awesome. i mean real awesome. everyone was in a sunny mood, joking and laughing and everything. it was great. at some point pee left, and then waterman and kenny showed up at separate times. and zisis and jair left at other points as well.

then we came inside cuz it was getting a bit chilly. and we went to the back of the ab and we were some of the few people there. and darts were played and more booze was drunk. drank. drinked. lol.

then me, leighann and bear had a massage train that lasted for a nice long time. and at some point dad disappeared with anne, and wayland and kenny and john disappeared to watch naruto upstairs, and then the hockey game started and everyone moved away from the dart board to watch it, and then bear went upstairs to pass out on the couch and waterman started working (at the ab). he was still drunk, which is both fun and funny. then i played two rounds of darts by myself cuz darts are fun.

oh, at some point spink came down to also watch the hockey game. then aidan and spink both disappeared to somewhere and then me and leighann went upstairs. it felt like 1 am but it was only 10 at the nite time. they were all still watching naruto in the office, and bear was passed out on the couch and i think people were in the office office, and dad and anne were now also watching naruto and the office is still in complete disarray. me and leighann curled up on the couch and she read me harry potter. 'twas fun.

then aidan appeared and him, leighann, dad and i went to the music module. and they all got high and sang songs about may 69th, my favourite day. then bear showed up. then we left there, and everyone was going to the ab again, and me and dad left cuz naruto was awaiting us here. so we walked back here, dad blabbing on and on and on, as stoned as he was, while i just contentedly listened. then we came here and stayed up till 6 am watching naruto, reading comics and playing golf on the ps2. oh, and stuffing our faces full of junk consisting of pizza pops, cookies and cool whip, and chocolate milk. then, around 6 we started to pass out, though i couldn't sleep for awhile later. then we woke up at like 1 this afternoon and have been watching naruto every since.

now it's 5.30 and i think i should start the day. i have to study cuz i have my french exam tomorrow.. but i really dont' wanna. but i will, cuz i only got 65% on my oral part *points at crotch*.... *giggle*

love, hugs and summer days,

~jess
i wrote this at 5:31 PM

this is a test
i wrote this at 8:57 PM

no matter how hard you look, a window without glass will not show a reflection.

boy howdy, my legs and hands are red. they get that way when you walk all across campus in the cold-ish, in nothing but a skirt you made out of a sheet.

i went to visit dad at the ice gardens. but i couldn't find him. so i walked on back home, thinking i'd be way late for portering, but i'm totally 40 minutes early.

on the way back, i was totally brought back to frosh week. once i turned around the corner of tait, the following series of images and sounds filled my head... it was funny cuz usually, i don't think in audio at all, i have a hard time remembering what people sound like et al.

good nite bethune, good nite bethune, good nite bethune, it's time to say goodnite...laughter and screams as people roll down a hill...this is a nuclear power plant, there was so much radiation...something about dinosaur fossils... or a monster... what did we even say this week? i can only remember standing at the back, watching the faces of the frosh as they strain to hear a screaming, non-megamaphoned voice... this is the tim hortons headquarters...welcome to the scott religious centre...pee's face was so ecstatically happy when he got the staff... this shouldn't be video-taped...heyo! winters blows nuts!...THE MICHAEL G. BOYER WOODLOT! THIS WOODLOT...good nite founders, good nite founders, good nite founders, it's time to say goodnite.

and then i was back in the warmth of colleges. and now i'm gonna run up to my room to grab some junk to distract me whilst i porter.

bye all

love, hugs and sunshiney froshy times

~jess
i wrote this at 7:35 PM

When your best friend’s in Jamaica and your dad is at work, you’ll find yourself bored.

So what did I do today, you ask? Well, I woke up early (around 9, I think) and finished up my portfolio dealie for French class. Then I went to do my oral exam *points at crotch*. It went not so well at all. I got 65%... *shrugs* whatevah. I don’t really care all that much, tell you the truth. Unless it prevents me from getting enough osap money, then I care. I’m totally writing this on word, that’s why I’m using capital letters.

Anyways. So then I mosied on back, I think… no, I didn’t. I went to the print studio and found it unlocked but no one inside. No one. It was real creepy. And so I stood around all awkward for a while. Then I found this sign that said “you can come in to clean your screen from the 5th to the 23rd between 9 and 4” so I was like. Uh… okay. So I did. Yay. Now my screen is clean. And I can get money back from that… meaning stupid york is gonna take it cuz they’re a bunch of asshole jerk faces.

Then what did I do… hmmm….

Then I think I came back to my room. No, wait. I gave in a library book first. Then I came back to my room. And I sat around and did the crossword a little, and watered my dead and dying plants, and tried to make new plants and then I went to check my email again, to see if I got anything from dad. And I don’t think I had yet. Then jair and pee came out of the office so I went with them to the arts advising centre. Then we came back and watched family guy and I mooched a bit of fries and pop from pee. Then they both had to go, and I didn’t wanna stick around the office with sari, so I went to email again, but there were people there so I went to the gallery and saw a show and talked to a dude from my printing class who I hadn’t seen in awhile. Then I checked my email and found one from dad that said to call or go over there tonite around 12.30. so I emailed him back and told him to come to winters when he got off work.

Then I went upstairs and made pasta and tried to call dad, but graham thought I said jay and I didn’t realize that till I hung up and then I felt all scared to call back so I took awhile, and then called back and then there was no answer. So, pasta and trading spaces complete, I went to email dad again and told him of my funny little story. Then I decided to go for a walk.

So I walked around campus, not thinking of anything except for the fact that I wasn’t thinking of anything and imagining licia all warm in the southern sun, and todd all warm in the western sun, and dad all.. on an ice rink.. *giggle* and other such random things. I considered the possibility of ending up at the gardens and surprising dad, and I toyed with the idea of coming to the computer lab. But both these things gave my walk a purpose and a destination and I didn’t want that. I went over to the greenhouse and saw a ladder leading to a roof that I will explore sometime either with someone, or at nite when no one will see me being illegal. Then I walked inside the fqwghads building and explored that a bit cuz I had never been inside it before. It was fun. I felt real out of place in my bright green skirt and shoes and mismatched socks and pigtails. There were weird little machines outside of doorways, and electrical panels all throughout the building. And the tail end of a lab coat whipped by a few doorways. Chemical bottles were lying on shelves, and the sent of chemicals lingered in the air. My journey quickly turned into a mission to find a washroom that didn’t have a cleaning person in it. Apparently, in this building all the bathrooms --- correction ---all the women’s washrooms get cleaned at the same time, and that time is when I have to potty. So I left my adventure building and went to the building beside it to use the facilities. Then I wandered over to ps2 to where I am now sitting. Yay that.

I have to porter tonite. That is no fun. But maybe I’ll do something creative with my time… maybe not. Hmmm.. we’ll see.

I guess that’s all I’ll write for now.

Love, hugs and adventures,

~jess

i wrote this at 6:05 PM

postin' from the library, lookin' like a fool.. i don't really care, cuz my mom says i'm cool

yay making up songs!

and now, some procrastination. brought to you by the letter q.

A - Age?: (à la sound of music...) i am 19 going on 8...

B - Band listening to right now: um.... right now? people's keys clacking away in the libary.

C - Career in future: something to do with children, art, animals and not doing much but getting paid a lot for it.

D - Dad's name: james robert john(?)

E - Easiest person to talk to: other than myself.. i'd say licia and dad.

F - Favourite song at the moment: um... i dunno. i really like every song on licia's tudhope and todd and no cd's till brooklyn cds.

G- Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: neither, they both have gelatin in them... which is a shame, really.

H - Hometown: winters... oh, you mean where am i from... washburn island, cadmus before that, pickering before that, willowdale before that. i'm a nomad.

I - Instruments you play: nadda. i have a drumkit. but only learnt one song. and i also played the recorder. and of course, the spoons. and the kazoo.

J - Job title: "Supreme Overlord of Andromeda Pi Beta Alpha Dishwasher. Inhabited by purple monkeys." ahahaha! todd, you're awesome. me? just call me slacker.

K - Kids: hopefully i'll get that job at baby gab or the pet store. that would be so supremely cool.

L - Longest car ride ever: umm... buffalo, i think? though that wasn't actually that long. so i don't know. paris... was also not that long. oh, bus ride to ottawa in grade 6.

M - Mom's name: jenny ann

N - Number of siblings: two, plus all the winters kids who consider me their little sister.

O - Oldest friend?: that would be my sister.

P - Phobia[s]: um, slight aracno- and i'm also afraid of people and growing up...

Q - Quote you like: um... i can't think of any off-hand... "what winters has taken from me: my virginity, my sanity, my inhibitions. what winters has given me: my life." from the 3rd floor girl's bathroom, last stall. yay.

R - Reason to smile: what doesn't make me smile would be a much easier list to produce: sad friends... um.. jealousy... and i can't really think of anything else. haha.

S - Song you sang last: uh... oh, i was humming along to avril this morning.

T - Time you wake : if i don't have my alarm set.. 1 ish.. if i do have my alarm set.. 1ish.. i gotta stop sleeping through that thing....

U - Unknown fact about me: a bunch of my friends in grade 4 said they had imaginary friends, so i made one up to fit in. i think his name was bob.

V - Vegetable you hate: brussel sprouts! and mashed squash makes me gag.

W - Worst habit: concentrating too much on little things that mean nothing, and thereby getting jealous too easily and going through a small crisis where i think i'm unloved.

X - X-rays you've had: just the teeth, i think.

Y - Yummy food: anything, right now, would be yummy. especially if it were free. this wondering how i'm going to eat for the next while is starting to piss me off...

Z - Zodiac sign: gemini. i'm split right up the middle into a little kid and the real me... but the little kid usually wins. *giggle*

yay!

i think i should go.. cuz i have laundry in the washing machine... *le sigh*

love, hugs and other such things

~jess
i wrote this at 2:43 PM