alright alright. nevermind. i just actually talked to dad and cleared up a lot of what was making me upset and now i feel a lot better.

i'm always gonna feel jealous, but i have to learn to deal with that or i'll never be a true friend to all involved.

and i'm listening to my bebop jazz cd so all is right with the world.

though i still don't know what to do for my portfolio. i hate a blank world document.

love, hugs, and addendums to case repor---- i mean posts... (that was an x-files reference.)

~jess
i wrote this at 2:48 PM

*ahem* to continue...

sorry 'bout that. me and dee realised we had to run to give andrew back his keys, and that we had forgotten.

alright, so ya. it wasn't a terribly bad pub nite, in fact, if i hadn't been all emotional and whatever, it would have been tremendously awesome. (which is was anyway for some people *wink*) but it seemed like last nite, everything that usually makes me upset was happening. all the reasons for being jealous, all the insecurities i have about everything and etc was going on and putting me in an upset mood. then something really upset me so i went to bed and cried myself to sleep.

and then last nite, again, when trying to sleep, i was all upset again. it's like i'm fine during the day, happy and everything (well, not really, but i seem that way as always) and then i go to bed alone and get all upset about it, only to wake up in the light of day in a fine mood to be starting again. i remember a while ago someone telling me that though they have fun and are in a good mood during the day, the bottom line was that they went to bed sad and lonely. well, now i feel like that and i don't like it one bit. and last nite, all that kept going through my head was that i had nowhere to run to to talk about it or to cry to or anything. no one to hold me. so i am venting to you, bloggie.

and i guess i should go do my portfolio now...

as always, i am not saying this for sympathy or whatever, i just needed somewhere to vent.

love, hugs and warm days

~jess
i wrote this at 12:50 PM

*achoo* bless you

ho hum.

last nite was pub nite, and what a one it was. not in the good way, either. though it wasn't terribly bad. everything was getting to me. like everything

ahh!

gotta go!!!


i wrote this at 8:57 PM

everybodeeee!!!! if you can, go see this movie!!!!

it's so awesome. i've seen it twice now instead of doing any work at all... well, i mean, i did write two tests and print all day till 8 (which i thought was 9.... there's that whole being able to tell time thing...) and then came here (office) and then went. with bear in tow of us two.

go see it!!!! i highly recommend it!!! with all my recommendation powers!!!

also, shaolin soccer is coming to here. well, the states, we're not quite sure if it's coming to canada. but if it is... !!!!!!

yay!

love, hugs and MOVIE=PROCRASTINATION FUN!!!! and also mysterious bags of popcorn.

~jessica
i wrote this at 12:28 AM