the real folk blues.. *lalala japanese*....

now it is 10 to 3 am and i have just finished portering and was emailing porters to see if someone could cover my shift tomorree, and realised i forgot to say that i TOTALLY found my formal dress... i just need 300$.

lol

it is totally my dream dress, the one i wanted exactly. it's long and pink, and on the back has criss crossy strings, that then go up from the back like where bra straps would lie, and meet at the top of a triangle piece on my throat, in a bow. that sounds really stupid. anyways. then it's tight at the top, in all the right places, and gently swoops out and becomes a long flowing princess dress. and it has little sequin dealies all over the chest that go down in lines down the legs till the croch area....

i'll try and find a picture now.

it was at the bay.

anyone got 300$?

*giggle*

i'll prolly just stick to the rainbow corset from la vie en rose and a princess-y skirt.. but this was soo pretty!!!

love, hugs and girlie-ness

~jess
i wrote this at 2:50 AM

rain falls angry on the tin roof.

i am so BORED!

welp, not really. but i know i'm going to be bored in about 10 seconds when i go up to my room with nothing to do. everyone's in montreal. i hope they're all having fun.

i went downtown today. like all day. i left here before noon, i think. and got back about 20 minutes ago, at 7. and i walked soooo much. i'm really quite tired. but it was fun.

my throat hurts. i got sick sometime last nite between not being able to fall asleep and sleeping in... i've been eating vicks dealies all day, and drinking water

i have to porter at 10.15. but i REALLY don't want to. i want to go to bed or something.

last nite when i was trying to sleep, i was all upset again. i don't know why. i just suddenly started half-dreaming all these terrible scenarios where i was dying or in teh hospital, or someone else was dying or was dead. it was really bad. then i guess i passed out. but this is the second nite where i couldn't sleep and thought of sad things and got all upset and had to hold back the tears. hopefully tonite i'll be too tired and i'll just pass out.

i don't really have anything to say. i miss everyone like crazy. i'm so lonely. lol. they'll be back tomorrow. i'm not actually that upset or anything. not really lonely. just miss them, is all.

last nite i watched atlantis. it was very good. i liked the way the fingers were drawn.

i think i'm gonna go up to my room and do absolutely nothign now.

bye!

love, hugs and hall computers

~jessica
i wrote this at 7:21 PM

but we all call him the bear...

well today was awesome. i found my wallet. i woke up in quite an opposite mood then from when i went to bed. mind you, when i went to bed i was all depressed for no reason. well, there were reasons, i think i was tired cuz usually they dont' get to me like that. but anyways, i woke up, kinda snoozing through my alarms, sun shining through my window, wandering through a dream of bright colours, happy people, smiling babies, market places of bangles and baubles and other fun things, photography, and as i woke to reality, deciding that i would get up and leave the dream-world, i found my wallet. in the dream.

and then in real life when i was in the office.

mind you, it was after i called and cancelled my debit and york card, but whatevah. oh no, wait, i didn't even find it till after class, but even then.

when he's sleeping, he's weeping, those nasty thoughts are creeping in. oh, bear, what are you gonna do, we barely know him when he's sleeping....

so i had mr. noodles for breakfast. i showered and dressed in fun clothes and made my hair fun and springy and sparkly and added little fun clippies, and felt good. just naturally happily good. about everything. i mean, sure life sucked yesterday, but today was a new day with new possibilities and new chances for good turns and happy endings.

and then i went to class and was bored off my ass but had fun with it and everyone was hyper in a bored sort of way, and going insane. and jumping up and down for random reasons.. that was other people, not even me. heehee. and the teacher was joking with us and we were joking back. and then i got a good idea for the upcoming project. and then we got our other ones back and i got a b cuz it was late (i made 'a' quality work!!! A!) so THAT was awesome

then i came back, found my wallet, joked around with some peeps, went for dinner with dad, watched some funnies, played some darts (kinda), watched the frosh video from last year... which took us all back to fun sunshiney times. then we went to the music module so everyone coudl get high. and i actually went in this time so i wasn't just sitting outside watchign like a douchebag. and i didn't get high, and no one said i was or made me upset with it *pointed look* and it was fun.

and we just finished laughing our asses off for 10 minutes at we dont' even know what.

all in all, a very very good day.

everythign's coming up cheese. *giggle*

love, hugs and sunshiney fun times

~jessica
i wrote this at 2:07 AM

you know what sucks?

when you lose your wallet and have no idea where the crap it can be. fo sewious. i mean, i lost it either in *ahem* the office, the music module where everyone got high yesterday, the ab, alicia's room or i left it in the hall by the computers.

but, i have searched the office like crazy, it wasn't in the music-y place when we left (i remember looking at the floor and seeing nothing), i checked the ab, and alicia says it's not in her room. so. i am fucked. it had my meal card, bank card, health card, SIN card and birth certificate. arg. growl. arggy growl.

i als have a crapload of work coming up that's due. and i have no idea if i'm going to get any of it done.

ah well. so is life.

that's it. i'm terribly bored.

love, hugs and .. other stuff?

~jessica
i wrote this at 10:44 PM