rain falls angry on the tin roof.

i am so BORED!

welp, not really. but i know i'm going to be bored in about 10 seconds when i go up to my room with nothing to do. everyone's in montreal. i hope they're all having fun.

i went downtown today. like all day. i left here before noon, i think. and got back about 20 minutes ago, at 7. and i walked soooo much. i'm really quite tired. but it was fun.

my throat hurts. i got sick sometime last nite between not being able to fall asleep and sleeping in... i've been eating vicks dealies all day, and drinking water

i have to porter at 10.15. but i REALLY don't want to. i want to go to bed or something.

last nite when i was trying to sleep, i was all upset again. i don't know why. i just suddenly started half-dreaming all these terrible scenarios where i was dying or in teh hospital, or someone else was dying or was dead. it was really bad. then i guess i passed out. but this is the second nite where i couldn't sleep and thought of sad things and got all upset and had to hold back the tears. hopefully tonite i'll be too tired and i'll just pass out.

i don't really have anything to say. i miss everyone like crazy. i'm so lonely. lol. they'll be back tomorrow. i'm not actually that upset or anything. not really lonely. just miss them, is all.

last nite i watched atlantis. it was very good. i liked the way the fingers were drawn.

i think i'm gonna go up to my room and do absolutely nothign now.

bye!

love, hugs and hall computers

~jessica
i wrote this at 7:21 PM

but we all call him the bear...

well today was awesome. i found my wallet. i woke up in quite an opposite mood then from when i went to bed. mind you, when i went to bed i was all depressed for no reason. well, there were reasons, i think i was tired cuz usually they dont' get to me like that. but anyways, i woke up, kinda snoozing through my alarms, sun shining through my window, wandering through a dream of bright colours, happy people, smiling babies, market places of bangles and baubles and other fun things, photography, and as i woke to reality, deciding that i would get up and leave the dream-world, i found my wallet. in the dream.

and then in real life when i was in the office.

mind you, it was after i called and cancelled my debit and york card, but whatevah. oh no, wait, i didn't even find it till after class, but even then.

when he's sleeping, he's weeping, those nasty thoughts are creeping in. oh, bear, what are you gonna do, we barely know him when he's sleeping....

so i had mr. noodles for breakfast. i showered and dressed in fun clothes and made my hair fun and springy and sparkly and added little fun clippies, and felt good. just naturally happily good. about everything. i mean, sure life sucked yesterday, but today was a new day with new possibilities and new chances for good turns and happy endings.

and then i went to class and was bored off my ass but had fun with it and everyone was hyper in a bored sort of way, and going insane. and jumping up and down for random reasons.. that was other people, not even me. heehee. and the teacher was joking with us and we were joking back. and then i got a good idea for the upcoming project. and then we got our other ones back and i got a b cuz it was late (i made 'a' quality work!!! A!) so THAT was awesome

then i came back, found my wallet, joked around with some peeps, went for dinner with dad, watched some funnies, played some darts (kinda), watched the frosh video from last year... which took us all back to fun sunshiney times. then we went to the music module so everyone coudl get high. and i actually went in this time so i wasn't just sitting outside watchign like a douchebag. and i didn't get high, and no one said i was or made me upset with it *pointed look* and it was fun.

and we just finished laughing our asses off for 10 minutes at we dont' even know what.

all in all, a very very good day.

everythign's coming up cheese. *giggle*

love, hugs and sunshiney fun times

~jessica
i wrote this at 2:07 AM

you know what sucks?

when you lose your wallet and have no idea where the crap it can be. fo sewious. i mean, i lost it either in *ahem* the office, the music module where everyone got high yesterday, the ab, alicia's room or i left it in the hall by the computers.

but, i have searched the office like crazy, it wasn't in the music-y place when we left (i remember looking at the floor and seeing nothing), i checked the ab, and alicia says it's not in her room. so. i am fucked. it had my meal card, bank card, health card, SIN card and birth certificate. arg. growl. arggy growl.

i als have a crapload of work coming up that's due. and i have no idea if i'm going to get any of it done.

ah well. so is life.

that's it. i'm terribly bored.

love, hugs and .. other stuff?

~jessica
i wrote this at 10:44 PM

livin' on the edge!

i have no idea why that's stuck in my head. man, do i ever have to potty. but being how i'm on the computer in the hallway, i will wait till i'm done posting.

i have to porter tonite. boo-urns to that. everyone is at licia's. like her mom's. for sunday dinner. when i say everyone, i mean todd, james, leighann and bear. wish i could be there. alas.

go here to see some awesome pictures from when we went to eat the kitchen sink sundae. it was AWESOME! not unlike the miracle of life.

last nite i went to dad's and we watched bebop and then todd came over and we watched more bebop and then we went to bed. it was fun and sleep-over like. yay. and then me and todd slept in till noon while dad played zuma. this weird yet fun game he found online. it's fun to watch, that is. i never actually played it. but it has bright colours and fun noises. not like that annoying game licia found last year that had the worst noises EVER and she never stopped playing it.

AHAHAHAHHAHA! these two guys just walked by and one of them said "better not be." and the other one started singing to the tune of santa claus is coming to town, the you better not shout, you better not cry... but he was saying "you better not be, you better not be." it was funny, shut up.

welp, i guess i'm done now. especially cuz a guy-man just went into the bathroom behind me and i don't wanna listen to him shit.

love, hugs and random posties!

~jess


i wrote this at 7:42 PM

1, 2, 3 let's jam...


You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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yay me!



Your Heart is Yellow


What Color is Your Heart?
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haha. it's funny cuz kenny finally asked me out last nite... and i said no on account of i'm a happy single girl right now.



Lactating Barbie? What the fuck is wrong with you?
Snap out of it and kill the kid while you still
can!


If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
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*giggle*

alright. i'm going to bed.

nite all.

~jessica
i wrote this at 3:33 AM