i don't cry when my dog runs away, i don't get angry at the bills i have to pay, i don't get angry when my mom smokes pot, drops the bottle and goes right to the rock.

i just showered. and now i'm getting dry/procrastinating some more. i'm sorta hungry. but i don't wanna eat. cuz i am way low on money on my card, and i eat too much. bah.

last nite i was talking to bear and he told me how he thought i was a hardcore christian freak. i laughed. it's cuz one time, i was wearing my jesus hoodie and he was there and someone else was there (this was like a month ago, apparently) and after i left, the someone else (he can't remember who it was) told him i was all christian. and he was like no, she's not. and the other person convinced him cuz of the no drinking, no smoking, no drugs thing. that's why i don't wear that shirt very often...

do not kill, do not rape, do not steal. these are principles which every man of every faith can embrace. these are not ..suggestions, these are codes of behaviour. and those of you that ignore them will pay the damage costs. there are varying degrees of evil, we are two lesser forms of filth.

ya, i don't really know the rest of that. meaning, i can't understand it through the hot irish accents...

ANYway.. i think i'm gonna go do the laundry now..
i wrote this at 2:25 PM

nothing to say, but i'll write anyway

i'm updating simply for the sake of updating, cuz i haven't done it in awhile. but nothing really interesting is happening. other than procrastinating my ass off.

this is going to be a very busy week. cuz i have a test on monday, a paper due on thursday or friday (i'm not sure which...) and my photo portfolio due on thursday. yay last week of classes (...?) then hulla's on saturday, which means i will continue to not sleep. jesse's up for a bit during the weekend and the week and such.... and then i have an exam on tuesday.

arg.

last nite was jazz nite at the ab. it was cool. lots of people showed up. at first it was boring. then it was fun, then it was boring again and then we ended the nite by watching some aqua teen hunger force in licia's room. (we=me, licia, bear, jaypee)

the nite before that was pub nite. everyone thought i was drunk. it was great.

it snowed yesterday. it was so pretty at nitetime, with the snoflaked gently falling. and there's still a little snow on the ground now. hooray! winter's here!

so, ya, i have nothing else to write. i guess i'm gonna study and do laundry and shower now.

love, hugs and an attempt at productivity.

~jessica
i wrote this at 12:48 PM

i like black and white, dream in black and white, you like black and white, run runaway.

so.. you know when you finish an essay the day before the day before it's due, even though it's not due till 4.30 the day it's due? NEITHER DID I UNTIL RIGHT NOW!

i haven't been done an essay on time in years. like, since before grade 9. jesus.

anyway. originally i thought my essay wouldn't work out for one of my sources. meaning i thought it was totally untrue. but i made it work. yay me.

anyways, i'm in a good mood. i have been sort of off and on for awhile. but i think i'm gonna be up for awhile. dunno why.. until hormones kick in.. stupid hormones.. but anyways, i'm good now and i will be for a while. yay!

and your taste still lingers on my lips like i just placed them upon yours and i starve. i starve for you.

hmm.. what should i do now? should i go to bed? that seems way to weird. it's only 1 am! that's way too early for bed! though i do need to get up early to hand in my late bursary application that was due on friday...

my essay's done. licia just went to bed. get satan some mittens cuz hell is frozen. and the end of the world is upon us. and what was that? oh, monkeys just flew out of my butt...

i'm sorta hungry. but not really. my mouth hurts. i got attacked by a potato.

i have to buy things. i'm going to write down my shopping list cuz i don't wanna forget:

-photo paper (pearl)
-picture frames
-lubriderm lotion
-shaving gel
-yummy smelling stuff... spray or lotion. whatevah
-toothpaste
-stretchy elastic thread for candy for hulla.

yay shopping lists. oh, dad just got home. he's calling licia as we speak. guess it won't be an early nite afterall.. hmm...

royalty! lord, it looked good on me!

i still can't believe i'm done my essay.... what is the world coming to when i'm done my work on time?!

i want some mashed potatoes. oh man, i want them so bad.... *drool* maybe dad has some potatoes... hmm.. doubt it....

well, i've got nothing else to write.

love, hugs and satan making a snowman.

~jess

mulder: i think death only looks for you when you seek it's opposite. (6x09 Tithonis)






i wrote this at 1:31 AM