g.a.h.

i feel like i'm about to pass out. my eyes keep going out of focus and then i have to blink them numerous times to make me awake again. damn not sleeping. it's 1.52 am. i have to get up in the morning to get my film. and there was somethign else i was going to do... but i dont' know what it was. oh ya. look at pictures in teh council office. i figure i'll hang around there all day. cuz i can't really do any work. or can i.... hmmm...

gah. i have laundry in the dryer. otherwise, i'd totally go to sleep now. yep.

photography was so super fun. i love being in the completely total blackness to transfer the film. and developping, though somewhat tedious and hella annoying with so many people, is the coolest cuz i did it all myself. even if my pictures don't turn out (fear, FEAR) then it was still fun. we're supposed to have our paper and filters for next week. which i won't. that sucks. damn hell ass bitch sucks.

chandra was here. it wasn't creepy. which made it creepy. and diane's coming tomorrow and i'm sure the exact same creepiness/not creepiness will happen.

who needs sleep? well you're never gonna get it. who needs sleep, tell me what's that for?

and then i cry.

the fantasy class is pretty cool. i quite like it. i like the prof, cuz she's such a dork but funny. sort of. and insane. which is always fun in a prof. i think my TA doesn't like me too much. i dont' really know why, other than the fact i didn't do the readings and was all talkative before class. but that doesn't make sense. cuz she wasn't there. so i guess my tired tired brain is making odd connections.

speaking of being tired, and talkative, because i am so tired, i was talkative. hahaha. but i mean seriously. in classes, i was all a social butterfly. but not really. but sorta, you know? anyways, it was awesome. cuz i'm all "yay, i'm being social!" and that's cool.

i wandered around today with chandra taking pictures. i just realised now, before i wrote that sentance that it was in fact today that all that happened, with the pictures and going to the council office to take pictures and stuff like that. ha, even earlier, when i ran into dad in the lobby, and he was wearing the same thing he was wearing earlier, i was going to comment on teh fact that he was wearing the same thing as yesterday. but it wasn't yesterday, it was earlier. whoa.

alright, even if my laundry is done soon, which i think it may in fact be, i just promised andy i'd edit his paper for him tonite whenever he gets it done. cuz he needs sleep more than me, cuz he's all sickly and dying.

ummm... what else....

i really like doodling. like in class. and stuff. but it's like doodling to illustrate teh prof's points and things. so it's fun. and i like my little dudes, theyr'e cute. yay. holy typose from hell, batman. yes i know that's not how we spell typoS, but i left it cuz i kept typing it and decided it was funny. i guess.

i need to decorate my room better. with the lights and the sparkly things and hanging stars and stuff. it's not magical enough at all. maybe if i get lots of money somehow, i'll buy cheap fabric from value village or fabricland that's all pretty and shiny and hang it from my walls to look all princess-y. ya, that's a good idea. i like it. yay.

i dunno what to do. i can't watch a movie, cuz then i'll fall asleep. so i have to stay on the comp cuz it's more interactive. but i dont' know what to do on teh comp. so i'll just keep writing.

actually, no i won't.

love, hugs and sudden endings.

~jessica

joanne fletcher: That, and you mumble something about scully in your sleep. Who is scully, morris?! (6x04 dreamland I)

scully (to mulder in fletcher's body): i'd kiss you, if you weren't so damn ugly.

and

mulder: hey, scully? i, uh, know it's not your normal life, but thanks for coming out there with me.
scully: your welcome. (6x05 dreamland II)

i wrote this at 1:54 AM