will i wake tomorrow from this nitemare?

i had the weirdest dream last nite!! okay, here goes.

~it is next year.
~diane is visiting.
~there is supposed to be a rave in the 4th floor common room.
~me and andy and diane and other people are there.
~we are quickly getting bored waiting for this rave to start.
~the lights are all colour-strobey-techno party lights.
~diane has this new drug.
------okay. you know tim horton's cups? you know their lids? you know the part that you peel up to open it? well, this "new drug" was a white cream. with those little plastic bits in it. except that they were smaller and grey. i think they were just little pills that looked like that. and you smear this cream on your face to get high.------
~so it's just me, andy, diane and these other weird dorky people. ted was there. and i think he kept morphing into sketch.
~so andy and diane start smearing this crap on their faces. and i figure, well, you're not really ingesting the drug, so it's not bad. so i smear it on my face too.
~so we're sitting there, in this room, with this cream on our faces, with freaky dorks beside us. and nothing is happening. and i'm all "i'm not high" ha. right.
~then andy was all sick. so ted took him to the bathroom. cuz suddenly it was ted's drugs that we were doing, so he was all responsible for us. ted also had cream crap on his face at this point.
~so he takes andy to this bathroom. but it was a weird bathroom. it was (for york people) that little room with the locked door beside the girl's side kitchen. and he peed in a joint bathroom that was beside it, while andy puked.
~meanwhile, me and diane are in the common room. diane was quickly becoming pissed that nothign is happening. there was some other guy in there who i know, but i dont' know who it was. and i was getting very very very hyper. and running around in circles and acting like a crazy person. yet i insisted i was not high. so diane was laughing at me.
~then i went to the bathroom, the girls bathroom near the kitchen. and while in there, erin comes in. and she's dressed up like a fairy. and she's with tony and tanya and those people who she doesn't hang around with.
~i was at the mirror, the one on the opposite side of the sinks, looking at myself. but i don't remember what i looked like. then erin slid this flyer thing on the counter. and i was looking out my own eyes at this point. i dont remember what she was showing me. i think it was somethign about drugs, but i coudl be wrong. tony and tanya and them were very drunk.

i think that's all i can remember. so i might have woken up then. it was weird. i liked it. : )

i have nothign else to write at the moment. hi meaghan! lol...

love, hugs, cheers

~jessica
i wrote this at 3:41 PM

i'm making kt a blog and it's all weird and confusing and shit. weird.
i wrote this at 10:17 PM

paranoid of paranoia...

hello everybody.

my head hurts, so i'm going to bed in like half an hour or so... it's 20 to 9. heh.

my past few days have been uneventful. take today for example. i woke up. i milled about, getting dressed and such things. i took the dogs out. i took jane's dogs out. i ate toast. i walked to the mailbox (i've been doing that everyday... good excercise and such.) i got back, was supposed to excercise, but my stomach was having stabbing pains from the toast or something, so i watched xfiles. i took the dogs for a long walk. kt came home. i watched some more tv. i mowed the lawn. i did the dishes. i watched tv. i made dinner. we ate it. i watched some more tv. i did the dogs at some point in all of that. now i'm on the computer.

fun, no? ya, that's what i thought.

my head hurts soo badly. and my tummy isn't liking all the chocolate cake i ate. which wasn't all that much. i shoudlnt' have finished kt's, is all.

maybe it attacked norton anti-virus. that's what i'd do, if i was a computer virus.

and that is c/o kt. i found it amusing. but not, since that is what the scary virus did, we think.

when i turned the computer on the other day, a little window appeared. the "title" was "you are my best..." and it said "happy birthday, dear." with an "ok" box. so i figured it was something from kt. then she got home later, or maybe it was the next day, and she was like "jessie! come here!" so i did, and she was like wtf is this? and she thought it was from me. so now i think it's a scary virus. cuz the computer was fucking up a lot yesterday, and norton anti-virus wont' work at all. i even uninstalled it and installed it again. still nothing.

it's fucked i tell ya. fucked.

and i may have deleted all of the files taht were on the computer.. still must check that out...

gah. stupid computers.

so, it's friday. nothign is happening this weekend. bah to that.

i have nothgn to write, so i think i shall go now.

love, hugs, cheers

~jessica
i wrote this at 8:52 PM