bugs, the sound of boats on the clear blue water, and sunlight so bright you have to squint in the shade.... summer is here.

yay!

it's 10 to 2 and i haven't done anythign today yet. but i'm about to get off the computer and make a shirt and start a skirt and start jen's birthday present. i have to figure out tonite if i'm able to be going to antics tomorrow. by tonite i mean in an hour, cuz that's when peoples are home from the schoolin.

everyone can see that the road that they walk on is paved in gold.

i need to put the weather channel on and see how hot it'll be tomorrow. cuz i wanna know if i have to wear pants with my skirt of choice. yop.

i don't have much to write. cuz i just wrote last nite, and now it's early afternoon and not much has happened in the life of jessica yet... hmmm... i'm kinda hungry. maybe lunch is in order. and a walk. maybe.

when pharoh's around, you get down on the ground... a pharoh's story, a pharoh's story.

huzzah for joseph. bukaki! *sigh* i'm bored. ...

so erin and erica are all moved into their apartment now. whoo them. and now i have phone number and address for them. so i can start the talkie talkie. whoot.

so is edgefest happening this year? cuz i dont' think it exists. american edgefest does, though. and i said to diane i wanted to go so i need moneys so we can go. also i wanna go to warped tour. and to wonderland when the yorkies all do that together. i had a dream last nite that it was frosh week and i was moving back in and it was all fun happy reunion-y ish. and i was wearing the shirt i'm about to make and the skirt that i wanna. and i was skinny... skinnier.. i was the way i want to be. and happy as crap. it was great.

ooh, darlin, cuz you'll always be my baby... and we'll linger on...

i had a lot of dreams last nite, actually. one of them, i was in this lake thing with some guy friend. i have no idea who it was, could've been andy, jesse, greg, clare.. it was some guy with whom i am friends. and we were swimming and there was this girl with glasses there, too. and she had made big towers of these flat pieces of wood that were wrapped in carpet like stuff. and they were stacked in the water but there were so many that they came right out of the water, even though it was way deep. and i remember the sky was yellow, and the hills were kinda yellow and it looked like a painting. and there were some other shaped pieces of wood or whatever, that she was floating on or something. and we befriended her. and then i took one of the pieces of wood, a yellow one, i think, and put it in the water to see if it floated, but it didn't so the girl put it back.

then there was a ton of french immersions there, and someone (i think it was the girl) smacked me really hard over the head with the piece of wood. and it hurt like a beeaatch. and people were joking about how i might have a concussion and i thought i seriously may have, but i just laughed it off. then there was this bathroom, a winters bathroom, and i was in it with ashley g, i think, and somehow i got smacked a couple more times over the head and then i was going to the bathroom to adjust my bathing suit or something, and then i was suddenly being trained by some boss guy and he was yelling at me for not washing my hands, though i was about to.

then i was in erin's rez room and it was all dark cuz we were watching the tv or somethign, and andy and erin were on her bed, and meg and i were on the other one. and it was very comfortable, the blankets and stuff. and my head was still killing me and i think i started crying or something cuz i thought i was dying. so meg was all comforting me. then i think andy was. then i woke up.

it was weird.

angels lend me your might. forfiet all my lives to get just one right.

so the song punk rock academy is done by guttermouth and atom and his package. and i dont' know who was the original. guttermouth is the one i've always heard, though. i think i like it better. now i'm trying to figure out who was first. imagine they both did it at the same time and didn't know each other? that would be weiiiiiird... how do i get hyper so suddenly?

nobody ever mentions the weather.

i'm not sick, but i'm not well. and i'm so hot, cuz i'm in hell.

i love that song. they cut off my legs, now i'm an amputee goddamn you

yay.

bah to google. bah to it. it's 2.11... i must go soonish.

paranoia, paranoia, everybody's comin to get me. just say you never met me. i'm runnin underground with the moles, diggin holes.

i really really like this song, i'm gonna post the lyrics as my new lyrics.

yop.

actually, maybe i'll do that later. i can't find who did punk rock academy first. ew. it smells like cat shit. that's gross. i totally cleaned the litter box out yesterday, why's it stink? grr....

ya, so, i'm gonna go now that it's almost 2.30.

love you all, hugs for everybody

cheers

~jessica
i wrote this at 2:29 PM

your drug is a heartbreaker, my love is a life-taker.

okay, so, today i did............ NOTHING!

*sigh*

but anyways, that's not important. what's important is that i may be doin stuff on friday. stuff as in antics and weldon fun. <---- that means hanging around weldon for the day. and around town too, methinks, cuz i'll be there aaaaaaallllllllll day. i need to get my mom a mom day present anyways.

hold on too tight, i hang on every word

so, today was supposed to be my first day of doing something, instead of the nothign that usually occupies my day. but then my mom woke me up at 9 and made me go to the vet - dr. kelly said i need to stop chasing cars.

ba boom boom.

but anyway, i had to go in instead of her. and i'm all "well taht fucks up my planned on schedule so i'm not going to do anythign i planned on" cuz i'm lazy like that. and stubborn. and procrastinatey. and pms-y... shhh

only the good die young

does that mean if i don't die young i wasn't as good as i thought? hmmm.... riddles riddles

riddle me this! i was just watching batman. but it wasn't batman forever, it was batman returns. but i stopped watching it half-way through so i could go on the net. but i saw my favourite scenes... the opening credits with the floating baby crib, and penguin with his black-spewing mouth, and when cat-woman is created with the creepy-ass cats.

where you there when the pharos comissioned the sphynx?

if you were than you're a jellicle cat, dont-cha-know. it's odd cuz that song came on while i was thinking about cat woman. creepy creepy.

so i wanna be a temp for much music, i have to look at that when i'm done here. you know why? well, i'll tell ya. you get a downtown apartment and money money. like 5000$ worth of the green... er, money, not pot. also, a car, but meh to that, i'll just sell it if i win. which i wont'... anyway, you all have to pray for me.

yay

i wonder when the deadline is... cuz you have to be all creative and shit and the thing i'm doing will have to be mailed in, which is money money. and i have to make it and shite, so that'll take awhile.

forget regret, or life is yours to miss

no other road, no other way, no day but today. ahh.. it's so hauntingly wonderful. yay rent.

my cat attacked me the other day for no reason. bastard. it's all "hi, i'm a gross scratch thing" but meh, i've had worse. like my track marks from all the heroin. HA.

i hope friday can happen. cuz that'll be fun fun fun till her daddy takes *mumble mumble* away. some car, methinks. lol.

so don't sit back, kick back and watch the world get bush-wacked, pretend the neighbourhood is under attack. put away the crack before the crack puts you away, you need to be there when your baby's old enough to relate.

it's true, you know. JUST SAY NO. ahahaha.

outside naked, shivering looking blue from the cold sunlight that's reflected off the moon, while baby cum angles fly around you reminding you we used to be three and not just two.

that is mine, andy and diane's song. and now diane is gone for next year. so three has become just two and that makes me sad. but the memories are fun and good and make me happy happy. i want to know what a baby cum angel is. and i want to be a baby cum angel... i think i just want to be an angel. i want wings and i want to be an orb of light that lights up a room when i walk in. that is what i really really want to be.

remember who you were, realise who you are now, choose who you want to be.

and on that note, kids, i'm off.

love you all, hugs for everybody.

cheers

~jessica
i wrote this at 10:27 PM

where everybody knows your name...

hooray for yesterday and today. why? cuz they were fun days, silly.

i went to sarah hyphen's yesterday nite for what was deemed "movie nite" but ended up being us sitting around surfing through directv fun. well, we did watch bubble boy. and some of master of disguise. and this morning we watched the ring. and then me and sarah went to see x2. (OMG! it was awesome!!!!) and i saw the end of signs. so it was a very movie-filled time. but we all didn't watch the movies we rented. but we did watch some clone high. and julie, ja-9 and clare left to crash julie's brother's party. i dont' know why she couldnt' have just let him have a pary, but whatev, not my problem.

then i came home and was locked out of the house. so i walked to my mom's boyfriend's to get the key. then i walked back in the scary darkness and reassured myself that the ring did NOT freak me out. it really didn't. btw, it's very dark where i live. but the lake and the remnants of sunset and the moon were very pretty. as were the stars.

then i went online and talked to drunk andy.

now i'm going to go to sleep.

love you all, hugs for everybody.

cheers

~jessica
i wrote this at 12:47 AM