hello

so here i am. in my room. alone... in the sunshine. yay for sun.

i dont' have much to talk about.

this morning me and andy stole some of diane's noodles for breakfast. they were yum. he said he'll feed me dinner. so hooray for that. (i have almost no money left on my card... like around 5$, so i take free food where i can get it...)

yesterday/last nite i hung around in andy's room for awhile. it was fun. he made me dinner then, too.

tonite is rocky horror. hooray for that. and it's an earlier-than-usual show, which means we can take the subway back, and not pay billions of dollars for a cab. yay.

tuesday we might be going to the island. if it's open. and we might have our 1920's style picnic that has been in planning for a few months now. yay.

can you tell i'm bored?

i'd rather be bored like i am than have exams to study for, though.

today i went to the general store and the bookstore and the drugstore so as to find some sidewalk chalk and a skipping rope. but i couldn't find either. i might buy some cable cords to use as a skipping rope. they look like they'd work fine.

i went to value village the other day and i bought a pretty skirt. it's long-ish and brown with white flowers. i love it.... i wear it with my blue jeans under. i love blue/brown together. so nice. i'm going back to value village sometime this week with alicia and diane. and i'll be buying more skirts, sundresses and some pants to cut into shorts. and boys t-shirts, too, i think. cuz they are really really cheap. and fit quite well.

that's it, i suppose.

love you all, hugs for everybody.

oh, the tension isn't as present in the group now. things are working themselves out. which i am very very happy for.

cheers

~jessica
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i wrote this at 5:39 PM

things to live by

jen's dealie that i posted on the side, and this, sent from andy in an email this morning.

* Remember that your presence is a present to the world.
* Remember that you are a unique and unrepeatable creation.
* Remember that your life can be what you want it to be.
* Remember to take the days just one at a time.
* Remember to count your blessings, not your troubles.
* Remember that you'll make it through whatever comes along.
* Remember that most of the answers you need are within you.
* Remember those dreams waiting to be realized.
* Remember that decisions are too important to leave to chance.
* Remember to always reach for the best that is within you.
* Remember that nothing wastes more energy than worry.
* Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
* Remember that the longer you carry a grudge, the heavier it gets.
* Remember not to take things too seriously.
* Remember to laugh.
* Remember that a little love goes a long way.
* Remember that a lot goes forever.
* Remember that happiness is more often found in giving than getting.
* Remember that life's treasures are people, not things.

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i wrote this at 2:24 PM

ohmygodimdonemyfirstyearofuniversity

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!

so facs is done. hooray for that...

i have a few things to say, based on the guestbook entries....

~the dull blog was found in the most recently published blog list on the main blogger page

~i do cry when i need/want to... except the other nite when i was watching stepmom... that was annoying. i watched that movie cuz i wanted to cry, but alas. and the other other nite, when andy said 'don't cry, jessica' it wasn't like a "don't cry, you stupid bitch. raaaaaaaaaar" (demanding or anything) it was like "dont' cry, my darling, everythign will be alirght. there is no reason to cry" cuz really there wasn't. so shut-up-a-yo-face about crying. (i'm a-kidding) i can and do cry when i need to... also, if i cried in front of him at that moment, it would have turned that conversation the wrong way, and made it about me or something... my point's in my head, i just can't make it... anyway, i needed to concentrate on him, not my own crying... just nevermind....

I'M DONE FACS. LALALALALA. I'M SO HAPPY I COULD SCREAM. and i did, last nite a couple times, while skipping down the halls away from the lecture hall in which we wrote our exam.

last nite was fun, when it wasn't boring. the ab was packed with us all, all of us first years done our facs. it was great. everyone was drunk/high/hyper as shit. everyone thought i was drunk or something, cuz i was that hyper... and i kept making very lewd jokes. i got many-a laugh... yay.

i'm going to value village once alicia and diane get back from down-towning. yay cheap clothes.

the group is still filled with the ever-pressing tension. except now i have heard greg's side of things, so i know everyones. and my idea that i had, of having a group intervention, where i get everyone together and demand they all talk isn't going to happen... not cuz of the reason that i was doubting doing it - everyone would hate me - cuz i decided that didn't matter as much as these people needing to talk, it's cuz greg told me that it wouldn't work. and i agree. he siad that he wouldnt want to talk in front of everyone, and i think that is the same for everybody. so now i don't know what to do. i don't know how to fix this, and how to help these people. but the tension in that second floor room is so thick. *sigh* they better fix it soon or i'm going to flip my lid. what lid? i dont' know... but there will be some serious lid-flipping going on, that's for sure....

man, i'm hyper.

love you all, hugs for everybody.

cheers/terrah

~jessica

i wrote this at 2:16 PM

ahahahahahah...
i wrote this at 1:48 AM