i don't think my guestbook is working, which really sucks. a lot. er, i'm in mark's room right now, so i'll write more on a later date.
i wrote this at 9:01 PM

just wanted to post that i had a crush on every single guy that ja-9 mentions except for scott. i find that hilarious. also, it's friday the 13th and i just watched the end of rocky horror picture show. oh, ja-9, you can change the time zone under settings.
i wrote this at 1:00 AM

i just added a guest book!!! go sign it!
i wrote this at 9:44 PM

hullo everybody! and how are all of you?!
so, i just had my first painting class. it was supposed to be 4 hours but it was only 1. the guy who "teaches" us - as in the ta who is not a prof - is super young. and looks kinda like the naked chef. if i weren't with mark... well, basically serious "crushing" (how i loathe that word) would occur.
so i was almost late. well, not really. but i thought i would be. here's why. mark and i were sitting on my bed listening to this cd that this ray guy made (and though some if not most of you only like 'edge' music [music played on edge] i have started to seriously like every single type of music i hear. well, excluding maybe britney spears and some of the rap. as in, the rap that's like 'i'll shoot my niggers and fuck some hoes' that music can go to hell.) so this cd was awesome - esp. for the fact that this guy ray made it - and so we were listening to it. then my neck hurt and i layed down (what word is used there? lied? lyed? (k, no.) layed? oh, wait. it's laid.) so i laid down then mark laid down beside me and we fell asleep. it was so nice. i love how it got colder so that lying close together and touching can happen. k, that sounds really sexual but it totally isn't. whatever. (i don't think it is laid.... k, i don't care anymore)
so, i love oasis. thank you andy for burning me this.
our first assignment deal in painting is going to be to paint a self portrait - we're only allowed next week's class. this doesn't really matter considering it's four hours long - using a mirror and only the primaries and white. since last year i only used the primaries, white and black this is so not a problem for me. also, we're not allowed to use oils and lots of people in the class are kinda afraid to use acrylics, but again, that's all i've ever used. so go me!
this cd is kinda krinkly sounding. that's annoying.
last nite was movie nite and we watched invader zim (this is a kick-ass funny-as-fuck cartoon. go download it... now!) and fight club. why did we watch fight club? because it was september 11th and the movie dude is kinda twisted. so, i came in late (as i will every one since it starts at 6 and my class doesn't end till 6.30) and i sat on the floor and used mark's legs as a backrest. this may sound nice, and at first it was, but then ouch, my butt. so luckily we were able to steal the couch (as in me, mark and mike). then i used his shoulder as a pillow (i love doing this!) and he used my head as one. i almost fell asleep. meaning i had my eyes closed for all of fight club but kept listening.
no one's online cuz no one's home. cuz you all still go to high school. also, mark wasn't expecting me to be back this early so i'm waiting for him. i could go over there but
1) i don't want to have to wait for someone to open the door;
2) i expect that he's reading his anthro and he really needs to do it, or
3) he's not there. he very probably could be getting lunch. i'm kinda hungry but i'll wait.
anywho. i guess i'll go now. though i don't really have anything else to do. maybe i'll go get my OSAP. ya, i think i will. (i should have done this like a week ago. no wait, i didn't have a bank account then. but whatever anyway.)
love you all as much as i need to ask kt and sarah when the leaf thing is and if they can come visit. i really need to know. like, is it this weekend? i think i thought you said the 14th, which is saturday and when we're planning on hitting kensington market for the thriftiness therein. so tell me. i really want to see someone from the land that is the city of the kawartha lakes. that's how much i love you all!!!
~jessica


i wrote this at 5:14 PM

hello.

typing with one hand cuz i'm eating fruit with the other.

so last nite, i slept in andy's room. k, for those of you who don't know, andy's gay and it's cuz greg decided to sleep over in alicia's bed. me and andy were sitting on mine and they were lying together on hers and then me and andy left, cuz, you know, it was super awkward for us. so we went to the laundry room and talked for awhile. then we went to his room and he burnt me an oasis cd cuz he wanted to see if his burner was working. then butch cassidy came over. then he left and we were leaving to check our laundry and we ran into jay and nicole in the hall, and we were later joined by spiderman/batman/john. we all went to nicole's room cuz it's the coolest. then we had a tea party. then, at 3-ish, we all left and checked my room, which was now locked, then i went and slept in andy's bed, he slept in greg's. that's my story.

oh ya, alicia didn't have detergent so i used andy's. also his bounce sheets. i love andy - he's the nicest gay guy i've ever met.

bye now.

love you all as much as something that's a great amount.

~jessica
i wrote this at 12:41 PM

just a side note, listen to the live version.
i wrote this at 8:47 PM

i just posted idioteque by radiohead. cuz time of your life wasn't really applying anymore, and i just heard this song to-day and it rocks. go listen to it. right now.


i wrote this at 8:37 PM

updating now....

so i just slept for about 2 hours. i also kinda half-slept in mark's room earlier for about 2 hours. what's my deal? i'm hungry. i need to go get some food from the ab... i love the ab. it rocks. hooray for pubs being right there! as in, right close to rez.

er, i don't really know what to write. i still have to do my laundry. so does alicia, maybe we'll do it together. and maybe she'll let me use some soap? prolly. but i hate asking ppl for stuff.

anywho. bye for now

love you all as much as i am a procrastinator.

~jessica

i wrote this at 8:26 PM

so i was finally able to post that damn message. damn, it took forever. right now i'm just sitting here. i finally went to the bank, but once we got there they said i would have to make an appointment. so i'm going AGAIN to-morrow at 10 am. dammit, my class isn't till 4.30, i so could have slept in....

janine has a blog!! go janine. oh, damn, i dunno the addy. k, so i'll look at it again later through jen's then post a link on mine. k?

i had my first art history class to-day, the prof is british and obsessed with the muppets. and food. and he kept comparing the slides to the muppets and food. it was great.

i'm gonna go and update again later.

~jessica
i wrote this at 3:58 PM

i'm sitting in my room again. mark did eventually come over and we went out for breakfast. he has class right now (anthropology, or anthro as he likes to call it) and i have italian at 4.30. my first class, creepy.
i'm listening to the sweet sound of edge 102 - a radio station that actually comes in, for almost the first time since i was here. damn planes and other interferance. i made some sock bracelets. they're cool.
alicia had to go to stand in line for OSAP. i'm kinda glad to be able to go on the computer, but i feel kinda sorry for her cuz she has to stand in that really long line. it is so part-time here. and she'll probably get yorked anyway. (if you don't go to york, you are seriously missing out on all these inside jokes. they're really funny.)
i'm thinking i wanna go home this week-end. i want my vcr, some granola and to see my dog. also, i have monday off for yom kippur, so i could stay an extra day and maybe go to weldon, but probably not, i'll just have everyone over. well, jen, sarah, and janine. cuz chandra's gone forever.
i'm eating macaroons. the same macaroons that jen helped me buy after master of disgiuse. it's just really a mass of chocolate. well, it was, but i just ate the last freezer-burnt bite. yum.
i just noticed an error on my last post. it says (in the last line of the italics) that we shook get together. it's supposed to say that we should. maybe i'll fix it. maybe not. i dunno. it's now 5 to 3. i wanna go to the creepy class. i also want some other people to be online, dammit. damn high school and it's late ending hours.
k, now i read my last post and i'm all thinking about mark again. i don't really know how to act around him, or something. like, i've never had a boy friend (as you all know) so i don't really know what to do. i know it sounds dumb. but whatever. k, like last nite, when we were walking from the bus to the quad, i held his hand cuz we were walking close together and his hand kinda bumped into mine, so i just kinda grabbed his. but i wasn't holding it right, i was just kinda holding his fingers. i know i sound like an idiot cuz i'm like 'ahh, i didn't hold his hand right' but you all know me, and know what i'm thinking, so whatever again. i don't want to be the one to reach out and hold his hand, i want him to do it to me. mark, if i ever get the courage to give you this address and you're reading this, hold my hand. maybe that was a bit too forward. (it was, i just changed it, it said you have permission to touch me in caps.) also, i am SO not initiating our first kiss, so you better. ha. this is weird.
he said that he wants to go to thrift shops this weekend and i was like 'oh, i so want to come to that instead of going home.' but i think i should come home. just cuz. and i don't have any money. i didn't get my bank account to-day. i have to do it to-morrow. i'm done class at 1.30 so i'll go then. i wanna change the song from time of your life. i want it to be something that's like 'i'm happy' and kinda 'finally, i'm happy' or something. i dunno. think of a good song that fits that and email it to me, would ya?
so now it's 5 after 3 and i want to talk to someone. i think sarah's home now, aren't you sarah? so kick your bitch-head sister off and get on. cuz i assume she's on. or use a different computer since you now have 3. bitch. ha.
erm, i think that's enough for now.
~jessica

i wrote this at 3:37 PM

k, so right now i'm just chillin', listening to wtf their name is, er, fat chance. and waiting for mark to come up here. i wonder if he's still asleep. i would be too, had andreas not come over to use the comp. so now i'm just waiting. i need some food. but i feel kinda sick so not too much food.

yesterday was the boat cruise, and me and mark spent almost the whole time talking. well, playing my game "truth or dare without the dare." basically it was my sly way of finding out more about him. heh. i'm a coy devil.

anywho, then on the bus ride home (on my magic bus) i was using him as a pillow, and that was really nice. then i asked him if he really thought i was attractive... okay, time for a tangent of explanation....

we were walking to the bus with andy and jay and diane in front of us and i was bugging mark to tell me what he thought the question i didn't want to ask him was. everyone else knew exactly what it was, and so did he, but he was damn stubborn. so then andy said okay, mark do you like girls (yes) jessica do you like guys (yes) mark do you think jessica's attractive (yes) jessica do you think mark's attractive (yes) mark, do you want to have sex with jessica tonite (laugh, no) jessica, do you want to have sex with mark tonite (also laughing, no). then andy said that since we'd been hanging out together or something, and we have the common thing of being embarassed (thanks to him) we shook like get together or whatever.

...so i asked him if he really thought i was attractive, he said yes. so i said "k, my question was if you like me?" (or something along those lines) he said yes. then i said 'more than a friend?' and he said yes. then i said 'would you like to persue a relationship?' and he kinda laughed and said sure. then we went back to me lying on his arm/shoulder and trying to sleep.

that was a good day.

love you all as much as i loved last nite.

~jessica
i wrote this at 11:13 AM