there's no song stuck in my head... how odd.

so... last nite was hallowe'en pub nite and it was très fun. well, for me, for some people it was not. i dressed up as a little girl and erin was my creepy doll and it was awesome. i also took lots of awesome pictures so i'm going to go today to process the film before i have to go get clare, and then on saturday or sunday i'll print them. i'm really excited to get them done.

okay, i don't think it was très fun, but it was fun nonetheless. i think that's because of the weariness thing i was talking about before. it's not weary so much as depressed. and it's over the stupidest things. the most petty of feelings that i can't get over but i wish that i could. i'm not going to go into details cuz it's so petty and there are other, more important, things to be upset about. if that makes any sense to you or not, meh.

my hair is still all cute from yesterday. most of you will see/have seen it. oh, not janine. okay, it's in pigtails, but it's all ringlety and short. like above my shoulders short. it's so cute! i love it

there were so many wicked ass costumes last nite. that's wicked-ass, not wicked ass-costumes. i didn't see any ass-costumes. there were a lot of kill bill ones - 2 or 3 (one a guy) as the bride when she's wearing the yellow jumpsuit, licia was a diva and jonny blair and grant were members of the crazy 88. which is totally awesome. there was the whole clone high gang - jaypee as jfk, kristy as cleo (they did the tongue thing for pictures... it was awesome!), some girl as joan and a guy as scudworth with a bubba painted as mr. b. there was a nitecrawler, and a guy from thundercats. meg was the absinthe green fairy. james was herr starr from preacher. um... there was a girl as edward scissorhands that was awesome. um, there were a whole bunch more of really cool ones that i can't remember.

so clare, after we go trick or treating, we're going to come back here for hallowe'en karaokee. oh shite, i don't know how many people i'm allowed to sign into the pub. arg. i better be allowed three. (or four or five if sarah and janine are coming... what are you two doing?)

alright, so. i'm going to get dressed so i can go process my film now... yay!

love, hugs and hallowe'en

~jessica
i wrote this at 11:54 AM

rainy days and mondays always get me down....

but not really...

i feel tired. or something. weary, i guess. i did only get 5 ish hours of sleep last nite... but then i spent the whole day lazing around in the council office, so that should make up for it.. or something...

i think i'm stuck in a rut. but i'm not sure. it's weird. i'll just be sitting there having fun and junk, and then suddenly i'll be hit with this wave of upsetedness. and i almost start crying. and i don't know why. well, i know what's causing it each time, but i don't know why i'm feeling the things i feel that cause it. how's that for a convoluted sentence? (sentance?) anyway, maybe it's just hormones. the timing would be right, i think... ANYway...

i just read the crow (as in the comic book/series, whatev) it's so pretty and sad. i love it.

i want more time. so i can get more money with a second job, and still have the fun i've been having, but also i want to be able to start painting again. i wish i had enough free time where i could just sit and draw or paint and make birthday presents, in addition to homework and chillaxing. but it's never going to happen. but i have so many awesome ideas for pieces that are never going to get done. and when i do find the time for them, all meaning of them will be lost. cuz every painting/drawing/comic idea i have has to do with my present mood. so if i don't get it down now, then by the time i get around to it, like i said, all meanign would be lost. i don't know why i repeated myself, but there it is.

i'm gonna sew my hallowe'en costume now. tata

love, hugs and rainy days

~jessica

[i'm going to watch x-files next chance i get... and i was just gonna write down a bunch of smoochy quotes, but i can't remember any. meh... this is stuck in my head, though, along with the song at the beginning of the post... sort of an odd combination...]

and i say hey [hey!] what a wonderful kind of day [hey!] where we can learn to work and play [hey!], and get along with each other. you got to listen to your heart, listen to the street, listen to the rhythm - the rhythm of your feet. open up your eyes, open up your ears, get together and make things better by living together. it's a simple message, but it comes from the heart, believe in yourself cuz that's a place to start.

i wrote this at 5:06 PM