so let them say your hair's too long, i don't care. with you, i can't go wrong.

so here i am at erin and erica's apartment. they're not here. i encountered erin at the underground and she gave me the key. erica doesn't know i'm here yet. she's out with her mom.

so i'm using erin's fantabulous computer with windows xp and high speed. it's so enjoyable. but i'm cold. and the wind is making scary noises. i'll close the window. there are two deer in the medow deal beside the apartment. yay deer in a city! that was a semi-joke.

i got nothin

love, hugs and toronto

~Jessica
i wrote this at 4:05 PM

and when you reach the scene of the crime, macevity's not there!

beige guy shorts, alien pog t-shirt, hair in pigtails.

well, it's been awhie, now hasn't it?

it's 11 at nite and i'm trying to figure out my science course for next year. cuz, dammit, i've been yorked. stupid damn school.

i feel like crap. meaning i think there's dust somewhere or something, cuz my eye was all itchy and now it's all puffy and my throat's itchy and my nose was running. and when i have a head cold i feel like complete and utter crapola.

um... what have i been up to? the other day me and kt went into the jesus shack and filmed it and took pictures. then today kt was a dumbass and didn't listen to me and didn't fast forward the tape to the end of that, so we taped a bunch of a butterfly on my finger over top of the jesus things. so now we have to go back. arg.

i have a blister between my big and second biggest toes. damn flip flops.

i'm going to the tdot tomorrow till tuesday. i shall be stayin with erin and erica. though erica's mom is there and erin'll be working a lot. meh. i'll entertain myself somehow, i guess. then monday is meg's birthday. so we shall go out to a bar or somethign or other. super hooray for neighbours who can drive me to the scarborough town centre!

the past few days i've been doing nothign but read harry potter. well, i mean i've been eating and sleeping. a lot. way too much sleeping. i can't get up before 12. but i've re-read the whole series and now i'm in the middle-end ish of the fifth again. i think i wrote about that in my last post, but that's okay.

she was underwhelmed if that's a word. i know it's not cuz i looked it up. that's one of those skills i learned in school...

oh, sloan. i love thee. especially that song.

dammit! i have no idea what to take for a nat sci! this is pissing me off so much! stupid exploration of the universe! had to go and all deny me till it was full! i hate you i hate you!

*sigh*

heh

hem, hem

just to creep out sarah and jen a tad. ;)

ya, so i woudl like to take astronomy but it's a lot of hours a week and it doesn't fit into my schedule anyway. so i think i'm gonna be stuck with some other stupid shit. like the science of colour. ARG!

we're all tired of being cheated, and i hope to god i figure out what's wrong.

i feel weird about this weekend. there are a number of reasons.

1) i sorta invited myself.
2) they are poor university students living on their own, and as such i don't know the food situation. am i to buy my own? ah, such trivial questions. i have money. so i can buy my own, and will offer to, and such. but the fact that it's a question is weird. and sort of a clue as to how we're all growing way to fast. well, i am anyway. independence here i come. *giggle*
3) what am i going to do all the time?!
4) is york photo ID coupled with my birth certificate enough to prove my existance for bouncers? man, i hope so. i need an LCBO card....

that's about it. and these things are quite trivial when it comes to being able to see my homies again. yay homies!

hmmm... galaxies and the universe... that sounds interesting now doesn't it? dammit! i don't have the prerequesite.

haha, there's a kinesiology (gym) class called beach vollyball I. imagine taking beach vollyball in university. strange, no?

gotta see, gotta know right now. what's that writing on your everything? it isn't anything at all.

oh, modest mouse and all the memories you bring. specifically, sitting in andy's room that morning near the end of the room. we're making noodles we stole from diane's. and greg and jesse are there.

and another: again, in andy's. it's winter cuz it's very cold. i think it's the day we made our snowman in the quad. and i'm all depressed. well, i was till i made the snowman. it all will fall, fall right into place.

and on my bed, just the red light on, listening to modest mouth and just lying there, depressed but pensive. with it on headphones and falling asleep. and emotions, and teh things that you say, it all fall fall right into place.

and in diane and meg's. but i can't grasp the specific memory. there are a whoel wack of nites that come to mind just of thinking "diane and meg's" but i dont think mouse were involved at all. like i'm thinking making hemp necklaces, but we always listened to sugarcult then. they're like the hemp necklace soundtrack. and then i think cleaning her room, but that was rent. and then i think of a few nites when they were all getting high. but that could have been so many nites.

oh! in andy's room, just after christmas. or before. i dont' remembe.r i just remember christmas lights. hmm...

that was a fun delve into jessica's thoughts, now wasn't it?

they go through the house like a hurricane, and no sober person could take it's oath.

so i've given up on the nat sci course hunt for tonite. maybe i'll take andy's way and do it next year or whatever. stupid damn york.

so i find that if i haven't laughed in a long time, like the past week when i was home all by myself, then when i am in contact with someone who i am quite wont to laugh with, like kt, we get very hyper and i laugh so hard it hurts the back of my head. it is the same hurt that happened when octopus came over. so think i need to "excercise" (ie laugh) regularly to stop this pain.

speaking of excercise, i have not done it since the heat wave week... which was like two weeks ago. so i have not excercised in three weeks, and since we're poor and pepper keeps having to go to the vet and he has the most expensive food ever, and my mom is not getting the money for me cuz i'm not supposed to be living here, we have a very limited choice of food. so i've been eating gross fatty things, for lack of anything else. this leads me to be quite disgusted with myself. arg.. well, not THAT disgusted. but i've become soooo lazy. i seriously can't get up before 12. well, except when i have to like tomorrow. cuz i still have to clean out my turtle filter. and i might do my fish bowls, too before i leave. which means i have to get up at like 7. which i know isn't that early, but when you've been getting up at 12 every day, it is. so damn.

has anyone else heard that song that's like "i dont' wanna go to school" and it's like "i don't wanna be billy shakespeare, i don't wanna [something] romeo" i'm like holy stupidest song in the world ever! it just pisses me off everytime i hear it.

okay, i've sent that email to alicia. now i must send one out to sarah. i've done my course thing as much as i can. i've read everyones blogs and gbs. i still have to read the yorkies. as in meg's and alicia's. okay, cool

i think this is goodbye now.

love, hugs and binging and purging in the blogging sense.

~jessica

been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding


i wrote this at 12:08 AM