whooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot............. for last nite

it was grand. i loved it... last nite was the formal. i can't believe i was considering not going.

so.. .i got lots and lots and lots of compliments. i fell in love with all the members of the group, again. everyone got really trashed, being that it was an open bar without a limit... and it was all covered by the 40$ ticket (i didn't drink, of course). i spilled wine all over me and meg, and then diane spilled wine all over herself cuz she was laughing at us. we all danced. we all rocked out to mmm bop, as requested by diane. there was lots of making out going on (naughty jaypee...), along with dancefloor sluts sluttin it up (tsk tsk to jesse). then we all came back to go to the cast party of trojan women at the open end. which was less fun. but we saw the remaining member of our group (being andy) and so the nite was completed. he was also trashed. then today was the sleep in and spend all day in bed day. and battle hangovers, for everyone but me. well, greg and meg had to go to crew at like 10 am or something. so that sucks for them. and diane had a wind symphony concert, but she just got high so her hangover went away, i guess... wait, i don't even know if she had one. ANYway. it was fun. lots and lots of fun.

[note download the revenge of the sugar plum fairy by the trans-siberian orchestra... it's très cool]

so lots of fun was had. yay. and lots of pictures i have to develop once i get my moneys. yay.

tis all

love you all, hugs for everybody

cheers

~jessica
i wrote this at 10:18 PM

obsession...

i am becoming obsessed with the used's lyrics. now i'll post them all. i haven't even heard any songs other than ink...

i'm just gonna post bits

It's our time to shine through the death
Glorified by what is ours
We've fallen in love
We've fallen in love
It was the best idea I ever had

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing

Do you want a song of glory
Well I'm fucking screaming at you

Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing

~a box full of sharp objects

see all those people on the ground
wasting time
i try to hold it all inside
but just for tonight
the top of the world
sitting here wishing
the things I've become
that something is missing
maybe I...
but what do I know

and now it seems that i have found
nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud
slow it down
without it all
I'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and I'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all

On My Own
~on my own

you call my name when I wake up
to see things go your way
i'm coughing up my time
each drag's a drop of blood a grain
a minute of my life
it's all I've got just to stay down
why the fuck am I still down
I'm hoarding all thats mine
each time I let just one slip by
I'm wasting what is mine
~from bulimic

White it out like glittering wax butterflies best. line. ever. (from maybe memories)



that's enough, i think.. lol...
i wrote this at 8:49 PM

fitting.. in an ironic sort of way

actually, i dont' think it's irony at all. but i just changed the lyrics to taste of ink. i searched for these lyrics cuz i love the song and had no idea what it said. when i was readig the song, and seeing how they're about moving to the city, to a life, out of a small town-ish area.. which is what i did. the irony is that i thougt the same thing, that my life can begin.. that it was my chance to break out and be free. but i didn't take advantage of it. oh well, there's always next year.
i wrote this at 8:25 PM

has it been forever?

no...it's just been 3 days...

erm.. i have this on the clip board. go read it. it's funny.

so to-day i had drawings due. well, i thought i did. it turns out our prof is a dumbass (i thought so...) and at the end of class last week (after more than half the class [myself included] had left) she said that this week wasn't the crit, that that is next week. but it's not cuz she thought that that's how it should have been, it's because she can't read the syllabus that she wrote properly. honestly, why am i paying for a dumbass to "teach" me? so anyway, i'm not actually that bitter. but i spent last nite finishing (starting) my drawings instead of studying for the mega-huge italian test that i had to-day. but all is well. i studied for an hour before the test to-day and i passed well. my mark will be high 70's i think. if not higher. yay!

so now all i have to do is a painting for next thursday (not to-morrow), touch up those drawings, one more drawing and my exam is on the 9th... NO MORE SCHOOL! hooray!

so, yep.

my throat hurts

um.... last nite i spent a few hours with meg on the floor outside her room talkin. one of those beautiful late nite talks. it was fun. and me and diane and alicia got spots at meg's greg's and jesse's table so yay for that. that's for formal. and i got my shoes. and i bought a choker. so yay! lol...

i can't think of anythign else to write.. so bya

love you all, hugs for everybody

cheers

~jessica
i wrote this at 8:13 PM